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Why I stopped blogging (and why I’m starting again)

On one of my posts, there was one comment I remember clearly: “Why do you write on topics like this? Nobody cares. Stop blogging.” It stung. It stung hard. It was one comment but the words were sharp. I sat with my laptop on the floor and cried all of that Thursday night. And the next day, I decided to not write on my blog again. It’s taken me 56 days to get back to my site again, and I’m still nervous when I think back to how I felt that one day. Since then, a lot of things have changed. The sidewalks are now filled with winter parkas, and coffee shops smell like pumpkin spice lattes. Instead of ‘Hot Girl Summer’ we are singing carols and waiting patiently for those Black Friday deals to drop. But in my personal life, I feel almost lifeless. Even with all the changes around me, I felt – and still feel – stuck in that moment to when I read that. Not too long after that time, news …

Love Catcher S2 E5: Knocking on the wrong door

Before you get into episode 3, remember to read about episode 1 here and episode 2 here and episode 3 here and episode 4 here! So to recap from last episode, the love triangle is now a love square with Ga Bin in the middle, Chae Rang is being oddly sneaky, and Jung Jin and Sae Ra are still hinting at their interest in each other. The episode starts off with tension between Yeon Woo and In Ook. Now if you remember Yeon Woo went on a date with Ga Bin the day before. But if I’m going to be honest here, the celebrity cast was only focused on how Yeon Woo was shirtless (again). Then it quickly jumps to the kitchen where there are hearts flying around Jung Jin and Sae Ra. As the only ones awake, they cook breakfast together – feeding each other, staring at each other. These two are a definite couple, whether money or love. There’s another palpable tension in the girls’ room. Chae Rang, going into the secret room …

Love Catcher S2 E4: The love triangle becomes a love square

Spoiler alert: never underestimate the youngest of the group. Before you get into episode 3, remember to read about episode 1 here and episode 2 here and episode 3 here! Chae Rang and In Ook scheduled a breakfast-making date the day before, making this the first time these two are alone together. Chae Rang gets ready at 8:30 am, and I mean this girl is full makeup ready with some fancy dangle earrings. The thing is, In Ook forgets and goes jogging with two other guys. Disappointed, she comes back to the girls’ side of the house and then Sae Ra with the cute save “How can people go running this early?” Again, my new girl crush. To our surprise (or not), when In Ook comes back he doesn’t even remember he made such plans. Lol. Leave it to the sweet guys Jung Jin and Chan Woo to the rescue with helping Chae Rang for breakfast. Is there a theme that people follow every day? I mean, these guys are head to toe identical in …

X1 Flash Part 2: TMI news and the debut stage

The boys have officially made their debut! But before we get to that, the members did something called ‘TMI News’ where they revealed some of the behind the scenes moments from their pre-debut days. Here are the 11 moments you missed: 1. The members were first afraid of Han Gyul. The jean jacket and the up do hair (when he initially arrived for Produce X 101) might have given the bad boy vibe initially but the other boys quickly learned that in fact, he was the sweetest of them all! 2. The cuteness battle between Dong Pyo and Hyunh Jun begins. They are deemed as ‘rivals’ for the member with the most aegyo. In the Korean culture, aegyo or 애교 refers to a cute display of affection. Who do you think is the winner? 3. He may cute but is he clean? The other members reveal some news that may be surprising to ONE ITs – Dong Pyo does not like to shower! He tells Yo Han that he washes after him and that’s why …

Feeling stuck? How to get started in loving yourself

Declaring love for someone is probably one of the most courageous things to do. It encompasses not only the present but also the future – you love them now but you’re inevitably telling them you’ll love them in the next minute as well. It seems like we go through a cycle of saying we are ‘in love’ with multiple people. We declare love for someone who we might have dated for a couple of months (or days). We even declare love after a couple of good dates. But as humans, we make mistakes. We realize that as time ticks, people grow. And as seasons change, we understand that some of those “loves” are mere ‘loving experiences.’ But then, why do we go back to the people who’ve hurt us the most? Is it because the euphoria that comes with such connections clouds the reasons why we broke up in the first place? Or is it because when we are in a time of vulnerability, we turn to those who we have been vulnerable to? When we’re in a …

Saying ‘no’ to self-hate

I am saying ‘no’ because you have ruined my relationships and have halted my progress in the current one. I am saying ‘no’ because too many times I have cried on the floor holding my chest, thinking that my heart would shatter if I didn’t. I am saying ‘no’ because there is more to life than you.  I am saying ‘no’ to self-hate. My name is Carol. I am not a fitness guru or a social media influencer. I am your average Joe who has believed for most of her life that being skinny, rich and insta-famous were the ways to happiness – so that is exactly what I always strived to be. Until yesterday.  I was done. Fed up. Sick of the way my recent vacation ended. I could not look at my boyfriend’s face and tell him that I wanted to be there with him because the only thing I was focused on was how bad I felt about myself. All I wanted to do was to hole up and pity myself. I indeed indulged …