There are exactly 120 days until 2019 is over and a new year begins. Time really flies when you’re having fun – or did you?
Instead of self reflecting a day or two before the New Years, I encourage you to reflect on your year right now.
How did you spend 2019?
Are you satisfied by your accomplishments and were you your best self?
Did you grow in any way?
Can you proudly say this was your best year yet?
If you’ve answered ‘no’ to any of these questions, do not panic.
120 days may seem like too late for you. It might have even scared you that there are only FOUR months to find someone to kiss on New Years. But I want to let you know, you have plenty of time.
I had a hard time dealing with the “let me work on a resolution midway through the year” mentality. I’m one of those OCD kids who need to have a fresh start on a Monday or on the first of each month – or even a date that I can later remember like (7/12/19 because 7+12=19), yeah I’m one of those.
But the truth is, there is no perfect way to start a change. If one of your New Years resolutions was to start a blog, start a blog! (That was me!) If one was to work on your fitness and health, go for a run (and don’t expect six-pack abs on your first day). If you wanted to buy a vlogging camera to start your Youtube channel, buy one now!
There are things that will never go as planned (even if we write them with a fancy Muji pen in our Lily Pulitzer planner – yes, I’ve been there). Currently, thousands of people are evacuating from Hurricane Dorian (my boyfriend included), people are grieving the deaths of those in Odessa, and new fires continue to blaze in the Amazon.
As much as these do trouble us, we cannot back down. We were given a life to live fully and if we go about saying, “Oh maybe next year I’ll work on x, y and z because of a, b, and c excuse” there is no way to accomplish really anything.
You have to be comfortable with failing – and that is even if you fail hard. You have to accept that there will be push-back but you cannot forget that the next 120 days can all be worth it.
In the recent weeks, actually around the time of me starting this blog, I had a major anxiety attack. I felt like a loss of control, when I felt like all the progress I thought I made towards loving my body and feeling comfortable in my skin was gone. I thought that no matter how hard I tried at my job I couldn’t make enough money to support my lifestyle and I felt like I’ve lost all self discipline, self control and self confidence.
To be brutally real, I somewhat still do feel this way and I am not proud of it. I wanted to be in a different phase in my life right now and I wanted to share my highs throughout this platform – other than my lows.
But on this Labor Day, I want to challenge myself and of course, you to do the same: ask yourself if you want a change in your life or self right now.
Because today, September 2nd, could be the start of something great. You have that control to start it!
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